TV Producer: Finding Where I Belong

Since 1999, China has experienced the most concerted campaign of propaganda and disinformation that the world has ever seen—one using every communication channel and the communist regime’s entire mass media arsenal. The key target of this campaign has been people who follow the ancient spiritual practice of Falun Gong. In the most literal sense, their voices have been silenced amid a cacophony of venom and lies. Here, they have the opportunity to present their stories of perseverance, faith, and personal evolution, straight from the heart.

The protagonist of this story is Olga, a TV producer, who was looking for direction in her life for many years. She said, “I always felt I was lost like a child. I did not know where I belonged when I was young. My parents treated me strangely. I didn’t feel like I belonged there. I liked traveling and meeting new people. I attempted to find out where I truly belonged in life while traveling.”

Olga was born in Paris, France, and lived in London for over 30 years. She has lived in Spain for the last two years. Before that, she traveled the world for years looking for meaning in her life. She returned home when she realized no need to seek further.

Looking for Meaning in Life

Olga met up with an old friend at a grocery store late in 1998. When the friend heard that Olga was treating illnesses for others with methods she learned in India, the friend gave her an address and time to meet with a group of people who were also treating illnesses. Olga looked forward to meeting some like-minded people.

But when she arrived at the place her friend had told her about, Olga saw a group of people doing exercises with slow hand gestures. She realized, “They are not treating people’s illnesses. I have come to the wrong place. But let me try since I have come.” So she stayed and learned the Falun Dafa exercises.

Falun Dafa, also called Falun Gong, is a traditional Chinese system of mind-body cultivation. It was first taught in 1992 in northeastern China and has attracted tens of millions of adherents. The practice, which is banned by the Chinese Communist regime, teaches the core principles of truthfulness, compassion, and forbearance.

Out of curiosity, Olga came back to practice again one week later. The pain she had been experiencing in her feet was gone. She got a book titled Falun Gong. Reading it, she learned answers to questions that had long perplexed her. “In the book Falun Gong, I found explanations in a few simple sentences. It was very rational and reasonable. I decided to continue practicing Falun Gong.”

But the book clearly mentions that practitioners cannot treat illness for others. Olga enjoyed helping others by curing their illnesses. She found this principle difficult to accept, but wished to learn more. She went to Manchester with a few other Falun Dafa practitioners and watched Master Li’s series of video lectures. They also read the main Falun Dafa book—Zhuan Falun and practiced the exercises together.

She continued watching the video and found what Master Li said to be quite reasonable. She began to trust Master Li and decided to continue practicing Falun Gong. It was at this time that she let go of her attachment to treating illness for others.

Olga felt that she had finally found where she belonged, “I truly felt that I had found my destiny after starting to practice Falun Gong. I felt like a tree that had taken root, taken root in the cosmos.”

Becoming a Better Person

For Olga, dealing well with her parents had always been a big challenge, “My mother has a strong personality. She thinks she is always right and tries to control others. For example, she criticized me and told me not do this or that. I was hurt deep down inside. I did not know how to deal with her. I felt I lived in a prison when living at home. I was restricted beyond my tolerance. I sought chances to leave.”

She left for London when she became an adult, some 30 years ago. And two years ago, when she returned home she felt her parents were still treating her like a 10-year-old. She found it was hard to live with them.

But she learned from Falun Dafa, “I should look inward. This is the first thing I learned. The solution for the problem lies within me. Don’t seek external reasons or point fingers at others when facing conflicts. But calm down and look inward unconditionally.” She stopped arguing with her mother.

In time, she noticed that her mother did not seem to behave as strongly as before. She said she treated her mother as she would treat a child, and offered her the love that anyone would need. She took care of her mother without any complaints. She could then feel her mother accept her and that their misunderstandings melted away.

Everyone Should Be Concerned About the Persecution of Falun Gong

The persecution of Falun Gong started in China six months after Olga decided to practice Falun Gong. She could not understand initially as the reports in the media were distorted and few. Later, she learned from Master Li’s teachings that the persecution was not limited to China. Everyone is affected and needs to make a decision.

“Every thought could play a role in promoting or stopping the persecution. As a practitioner, all my decisions have a role relating to practitioners in China. I learned my responsibility.” She cried when she learned about the brutal torture that fellow practitioners in China suffered.

To raise awareness and to help stop the persecution, she has done many things, including distributing Falun Gong fliers at Leicester Square in London. She recalled, “I remember at first that I stood there with fliers in hand like a statue. I wished others would walk up to me and take fliers from my hands. I felt embarrassed as I thought others could view me as crazy. But I knew I should do that to help the practitioners being persecuted in China.” Now she is happy to distribute fliers to raise awareness about the persecution.

As a TV producer, she wants to make a film to expose the persecution of Falun Gong and the organ harvesting atrocities in China.

“I wish to make a record of the persecution for future generations,” said Olga, “And to let those who do not know the facts learn about what is happening in China. For those who wish to get organ transplants in China, I hope they have a chance to learn about the atrocities taking place. They need to know their organ transplant in China could come at the cost of the life of another. It is important for them to make an informed decision.”

This article was originally published on, a website organized by Falun Gong practitioners to spread information about the Chinese spiritual practice and the persecution it suffers because of the Chinese Communist Party’s persecution.